Friday, January 23, 2009
Out in the Open
So, it's like this: I am emotional eater. I eat when I'm happy, I eat when I'm sad.
I use food as a comfort and a reward. When I'm tired, it's just so easy to order take-out, particularly pizza, which my family loves. (Plus, we live in Chicago, where there is no shortage of fabulous pizza options.) Add to the mix my life-long devotion to ice cream, and you sense the issues, I'm sure.
DH and I had a long conversation about all of the great reasons we could think of to spend this year experimenting with not making any unnecessary purchases on clothing, entertainment, just being more frugal. I have a closet full of great clothes that will all fit, with some attention to diet and exercise (but not without!)I'm turning 50 in four months and want to be healthy and fit. I know that it won't get any easier. I know there's no magic in this. I believe that I can be successful, but to be honest, it's maintaining weight loss that's hard for me. This time, I want it to be different.
After much thought, I took the plunge yesterday and signed up for WW. Again. This time, I'm trying the online version, thinking that I can do a lot of tracking and accountability right here at the computer.
It's frustrating and embarrassing to admit that I'm still, after all these years, wrestling with this issue of weight. I've had success with WW before. I hope to again. I'm going to try and think about it as a long-term project, perhaps for the rest of my life. I continue to believe that there are a lot of circumstances in my own life over which I have no control, but that weight does not have to be one of them.