Friday, November 6, 2009

Weary



SBC was part of a benefit concert last night for this group. It was a great evening of music for a great cause. I was so proud of his poise and commitment and my mama's heart was delighted to hear him sing and play songs I'd never heard him perform before.

Unfortunately, I feel too weary to blog.

I am so tired of energy-sapping stuff at work, in the world, in life.

I'm way out of kilter. As wonderful as last night's event was, it's not enough of an offset for all of the yuckiness and the pervasive feeling in my gut that keeps me stuck in sadness. Breaks from sadness are nice, but it's so hard to keep returning to a place that is furnished with loneliness and joylessness.

Time for something different, but I don't know what that might be.

7 comments:

Diane said...

(((Jennifer))). I'm not sure it helps, but I know how you feel.

wish I were coming to your area soon. would love to take a walk.

I'm feeling a need for grace, myself, lately.

Purple said...

Many hugs...

Jan said...

Hugs to you Jennifer. Wish we lived closer so we could talk and walk together.

Ruth Hull Chatlien said...

Hugs and prayers.

Hot Cup Lutheran said...

whatever it might be... may you come upon it sooner, rather than later.

silly as all get out... and yet not silly at all, but i recommend grabbing some crayons and scribbling on plain paper like a child. art therapy don't ya know... sometimes we don't have the words to unstick the yuck. scribbles are surely of the spirit however and it helps...

Deb said...

I'm sorry you're not in a good place,(((Jennifer))). I've been there, and sometimes it feels like it will never end. I hope you have someone you can talk to - even if it feels it doesn't help.

Rev SS said...

more (((J))) ... wish we all could get together for long weekend of walks and talks!